An unexamined life is not worth living. - Socrates
Wise words to live by. But of course, philosophers tend to have plenty of wise words to enlighten those of the world both past and present.
So, of course with a new year, we all tend to examine our lives. We take in the past and look towards the future. Sometimes with regret, sometimes with hope, and sometimes with confusion. Resolutions have never been my thing… even making them is hard for me.
2012 was rough to say the least, but at the same time, I don’t have any huge regrets (other than not finding my passport when some really awesome guy wanted to whisk me away to Costa Rica… yeah… #epicfail)
I guess this could be a resolution for the year. I want to be better at maintaining a good balance between my work life and my personal life. I pretty much sucked at that last year/maybe still am sucking at it. My friend (the awesome guy), sent me a link to a blog entry about this very subject that definitely made me think. (Read it here) I cried a little not just because of the story of him losing his dear friend, but also because I realized I was becoming that sad, anxious, stressed, allusive friend/sister/aunt/daughter/etc. I don’t want to miss out on the important things in life or take for granted the ones I care the most about because I’m too busy working.
I want to be successful. I want to create. I want to do something I love and share my talent with others. I want to believe in good work that I can truly invest in. But I don’t want to lose myself in the process.
I think I got really good at justifying being a workaholic. I could always use the money and it’s always nice to add to the portfolio. Friends seem to understand at first, especially one in particular. I think he tends to believe in my “business” more than I do at times. Or maybe he just believes in me. He’s probably one of the most successful and hard working 20-somethings I know. And I’m lucky enough to have him in my life to not only enlighten me on business and success, but also to encourage and just take good care of me. And because of all those wonderful things, he has put up with me checking my email, listening to me vent, fixing my computer problems, making my business model, waiting patiently to eat or overlooking my tardiness because I’m working. So a big thank you to him for everything he has done and everything he continues to do keep me sane. I know it probably takes a lot to put up with me sometimes. He even reminds of how necessary it is to take a break… (he may not see this because he’s not an avid follower… oh, wait… I don’t really have avid followers???)
With that said, I want to say no to side projects more often… especially when I can’t handle the work load. It’s not fair to clients to not get my best work and it’s not fair to the people who have to put up with me when I’m drained (I get cranky and anxious a lot). I want to invest in people and things I believe in. I probably gain more from those things than an actual paycheck. I already have more than enough to be thankful for, so it’s time to appreciate everything… even when I feel like I’m failing. I think I’m starting to see my potential in a different way.
I hope when you examine your life, you have something to hold onto more than just a job or a paycheck. I hope you have invested in people, a talent that you can share, or just anything that makes you truly happy. I also hope that you stop and smell the roses sometimes, dance like nobody is watching, and plenty of other awesome cliches that really are worthy of bringing to life! Life is better cheesy!
(This was long… but I guess that’s what happens when you exceed your caffeine intake for the day and you ignore Tumblr.)